Treading Water...

so for a while now i've been contemplating the blog.
do i keep it? why? does anyone read it? and why?
am i inspiring (which was its purpose) and am i inspired?

so many thoughts running thru my mind.

then the other day i ran into a friend and we talked about blogging & pinning.
she shared her thoughts about how she feels it does more harm than good for young wives and young mothers. while i love blogs and pinterest i found what she said to be very true.

it's hard. really hard to try to keep up with other moms. i remember being a realllyyy young mom and feeling the pressure, then something clicked and i didn't feel pressure as much as i felt a desire to want to be a better wife and mother. but with all the posts and pins and facebook statuses it's hard to feel adequate and it's easy to compare ourselves to others.

i think sometimes people think i'm an "other". i've had people ask me questions like how do i get so much done or how do i do it all with shawn gone all the time and the truth is, most of the time i'm treading water just as hard and as much as the next guy but i've been doing it for soooo long it just seems easy to those who are looking in from the outside.

the truth is, i am far from perfect. FAR! i'm doin' my best and trying my hardest to make life all that i think it should be and really, i think i make myself crazier.

i could go on and on but i won't.

i've decided to take the blog on a slightly different path. kinda makes me want to cry and i don't even know why. i hope that it helps the new mom or the "old" mom like me that is tired and needing some reassurance that you are normal. i hope i can let you in to my private craziness and make you feel better about yourself.

really that's all we want, to feel normal. to feel like we are ok and to know that other people are treading water too!

so here goes. my attempt to make you feel good about yourself. if it does, share the post with someone else. and have a laugh on me!

MY WEEK IN REVIEW

laundry. i HATE it! shawn left sunday so saturday (yes 6 days ago) we did laundry.
i threw it all over the couch in the living room.
and there it sat. all. week!
if you came to my house this week and saw the living room doors shut, it's because of the laundry.

now mind you. this is how it currently looks after spending 45 minutes putting away laundry.
you can only imagine...

now, if you follow me on facebook you will already know that on wednesday
jethro tore poor wilson's bed to smitherings!
and yes, this is what it still looks like.
i might get to cleaning it up on sunday after church.
wait. it's suppose to rain sunday. shoot i'm in trouble...

and here's an ecard story.
do you ever NOT want to unload the dishes from the dishwasher so instead you
hand wash the curent dirty dishes and put them in the clean dishwasher to dry
so that you can have a clean kitchen without really having to do all the work.
yeah! that' me...

and on a final note.
this is what my bedroom looks like when shawn is out of town...
you can't see the dog beds in this picture but they are there.

yes all of us, except gavin, sleep in my room.
every night.

and this week we have fallen asleep watching re-runs
of duck dynasty!
LOVE that show!!!



p.s. i will still post my quilts and all the fun stuff. it's who i am.
enjoy!